Partly I want to write, partly I do not have the words I need to express what I want to say.
I almost didn’t go on my happy island today although I knew I would feel better if going. Somehow sleeping would not have hurt either. So I am going to sleep now. Maybe write about it tomorrow …
I started today with very low energy. Not as bad as yesterday, but I rarely have two very bad days in a row and the last two have been so. Not that today got any better. I keep getting bad news… I must admit my fortune ran for a long while and I have wasted it royally, so whatever … Bring it!
…until I got around my island of happiness, a nice guy helped me to park by guiding me after he parked his car, went to buy cigarettes, smoked one and I was still … Eh 🤷🏼♀️ …trying to park. I have a big car, ok?! Like a true blonde 🙄 🤦🏼♀️
At least I didn’t hit anything today 🙄 and I do drive very …like my dad, but only on the way to my island and back. It’s all I know 😄 probably all I will need to know for a while now… 😔
Still, nothing compares to the amazing energy and connection I feel while at this amazing place which is Linotip – a independent center for dance in Bucharest which holds these dance classes. It’s all they can still do for now…
This too shall pass. 💁🏽♀️
Dancing with mask on for two hours is not the best thing, but the rest is amazing, all the more since it is the only place I get any connection with anyone. I used to avoid to look people in the eye or to look around me much. But now…
I do not know if it is the magic of this place that opens one to what’s around (and within for that matter) or I actually crave connection like I never did before. Probably a combination of both. I feel fortunate I chose to do this at this time.
Anyway, the class this week and the one next week are not so bad with mask on. The one in two weeks though… And I really really do not wanna miss that… but percussion rehearsals start next Monday… online though, which is not bad because it really helps with understanding the theory behind it all.
My point with enrolling to the dance classes was to better dance with the drum… which who knows when we will do again… Still, I can practice a lot online too …alone at home basically, used to have a habit of it daily in spring… Lost it. Maybe I get it back. Maybe this situation will hold enough this time to make the habit permanent (Ruin, no!).
I have been told I do too much. I do 😄 and I love it 😁 a pandemic won’t stop me!
Today was about adjusting.
Forgetting for two hours everything is bliss.
Unfortunately, leaving the island it all hit me. Not right away though.
Driving still takes all my focus and I hope I will be wise enough to keep things this way although I know I won’t.
I took a decision today. And maybe, just maybe, I will hold it tomorrow.
I wish I could say it’s spring all over again, but no. It’s worst, but I am determined to make the best of it. Just a shift in focus. Quite simple. Calm and steady. I do have looots of things to do. Now I should be able to cover some of them. Last time it payed off so this time I’m gonna let myself be surprised 😁
👉 Magic is a condition that kills people is a show with two dancers. One of them, Andreea Novac, was the guide on the island for the past four days and we playfully and methodically explored the island revealing even more that we could ever see on our own.
Basically, if you want to understand how to see a dance performance you should take her class and understand what you should and how you should look at a show through every part of you body. It’s also quite light and anyone can take the class. (She adjusts the difficulty very well according to participants without any loss in quality or learning experience – meaning it could be quite challenging too).